Do you remember the journey as we travelled into our subconscious minds? elated from the events of the night before we let our minds collide and wonder down into the private wonderland, the comfort of the warm yet bitter taste or burned lungs on mirrored tinfoil as we exhaled our dreams and aspirations and ogled at our reflections in each other's pin pricked eyes?
do you remember waking up hungry lost and confused long after the journey ended we waited to board the motherland to adulthood responsibility and peace but nothing came and we waited hand in hand between the covers of our feathered blankets covered with rugs and candles almost burned out just like us?
Do you remember running through the snow in the crisp winter air our hands icy and bold as you were coughing and the blood spreading like poppies bloomed on the crystal clear unspoilt snow as we smoked cigarettes and let the water seep inside our trainers and mix with mud and pebbles to rub our blisters and yet we waited and waited and waited, because a rusty voice at the end of the phone promised escape wrapped up in a small orange plastic bag and when it came you grabbed it and not me and we both rushed to the car exhaling fumes of expectation, excitement and exhilaration we opened the doors to our metallic pod where we sat back both wet and gay and cold so cold with fear and anxious wait and as you ripped apart the baggie and placed the contents in a spoon I watched as dust melted into honey and as the silver sliver pierced your skin relief spreading over you and turned my stomach making me sick and as i opened the car door to expel the pungent contents of my stomach I watched as you declared your love to it and not to me.
Do you remember my arms as I held you sleeping or as we drank wine by the fireplace and I recited poems out of a forbidden library book how we giggled and kissed and then as we ascended the stairs to our mistress we were in fact descending into hell and waking up in the night thirsty, unsatisfied and almost dying with desire to have another hit, just one, one more?
Do you remember when I came came home and cigarette butts like wedding confetti greeted me at the door and I climbed the stairs cos I was late and I was hungry and my insides were cold and I came and sat by the side of the bed where you were waiting with a penetrating pendant prepared to pierce my vein and soul and then as I collapsed next to you on a cloud of misery and despair we slept the dreary drifts of ghouls in limbo and I awoke my face dirty with soot and cigarette ash and you asked me where I had been last night and I giggled and cried and then we hugged and made up and again we let our mistress soothe us as things were getting bad and the cash running out and I sold my love for pennies and you no longer gave me yours and as the winds turned colder so did we and our hearts began freezing and so we went our separate ways.
Do you remember?
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